My World

My World

Looking out this window I see a world,

A world I’m a part of but do not feel like it,

A world I have been born into,

But with every breath the life is fading,

Before life it is where I came from,

After death it is where I must vanish,

Came from nowhere,

Going home to nothingness,

Every time I look at the sunset,

I feel like ending myself, this agony.

Every moment is a challenge,

Something not worth living for,

The darkness comforts me,

I want to be invisible, to be unseen as I have

To be unheard of by anyone,

Living in complete isolation,

Unburdened by the world,

I want to be alone,

With her by my side,

I want to die alone.

What is the meaning of this life?

For I don’t see a reason for mine,

I don’t see a reason for existence,

A reason for a reason to be,

Is suffering my happiness?

Depression my medicine,

Poison my water,

Let me fade away.

Created: 10/26/2009

Last modified: 2/27/2012